job search. kill me.

choices. choices. choices.

Eagles Won! Kendrick Ate!

This week has been exceptional! I am in a great mood. Stressed probably. But I don’t feel it, so I’m counting my blessings.

The biggest thing on my mind right now is what’s next. Like many of my classmates, we are all beginning to plan our summers. The conversation of getting a full-time job or an internship has been the height of discussion.

I am very ready to start working.

One, this unpaid internship life is for the birds. Free Labor Sucks. Great experience. Even better people and connections. But free nonetheless.

Two, I am at the point in my career where the jobs I want require 1-2 years of assistant experience. The infamous entertainment assistant position does not have the best reputation.

I agreed in many classes with guest speakers not to share the stories that I’ve been told. All you need to know is that the many, many lawsuits, the Me Too movement, and more were very deserved and necessary. I’ve been reassured that times have changed, but I can’t help but anticipate a horror story in my future.

So, I’m trying to be very intentional about who I work for.

I’ve been given a great opportunity to share a list of potential bosses and companies I am interested in with a mentor for his assistance and offer to reach out.

A dream. This is the definition of that saying: It’s about who you know.

Now, I have been anxious about what I want, who is attainable, and what makes sense.

• Should I put huge names and shoot for the stars?

• Or should I do mid-level to seem realistic?

• Only people with popular shows right now? Or older veterans?

• What do I want out of my job experience?

• What will propel me to what I want next?

• And more and more questions…….

I am lost. Everyone always tells you how to become a quality applicant for the employer. Now, I’m trying to figure out what I want in a boss.

I also feel this pressure to not mess up this opportunity. Lord knows I need as much help as I can get, and I never want to miss out or be underprepared if this opportunity works out.

So, as you’ve read, I’m spiraling.

I have this feeling that I’m on the precipice of a great opportunity, but it’s all about choices. And I happen to be insanely indecisive. Usually, I try to cement these entries with some advice or a quote.

Sorry friends. This time, if you have any advice, share it. And if all else fails:

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Now that you’ve heard what’s in my head …

In my ears:

“Twenties”, Giveon: I am so happy that he is releasing music again. I am such a big fan. It was one of my favorite concerts I went to in 2023. My sister says he sings like he has peanut butter stuck in his throat, but I say, “ HATERS GONNA HATE!” He’s fine. He sings. Spectacular, give me 14 of them right now!

On my screen:

“You are Cordially Invited” (Amazon): I did not think I would enjoy a love story between Will Ferrell and Reese Witherspoon, but I was pleasantly surprised. The film doesn’t focus on them falling in love specifically; it’s more of a button on the story. I think that’s why I enjoyed it. Love a good wedding movie. It was a cute movie to watch during my Friday Spa night.

On my heart:

I am falling in love with the gym. I haven’t been super active since soccer in high school. (SN: As an adult, I would like to apologize to my high school varsity soccer team. I lost interest halfway through, and I was not pulling my weight. Whatevs, Hindsight is 20/20. Sorry for being a bit of an butthole 16 year old lol.)

2024 was my first year back into it, but it was very inconsistent. Solidcore was my best friend and a bit of a crutch. This year, USC’s gym and Hotworx and I go together real bad. I think this is why I am not feeling stressed and am in such a good mood. I think I’m becoming one of those fitness people I hate. Go touch grass. It helps.

This was a shortie, but a goodie. Quick Look Into my Brain this week!

Thanks for reading! I made it another Wednesday!

Until next time.

xx.

kels. who. elsee